Rambling rants

                      ****Fair warning this is going to be sappy and whiny*******

          

     Yes, we all miss our husbands when they are gone, I get that but why does it feel like I can't talk about it? I miss him every hour of everyday, but yet when people ask me how I am doing I just say "doing good, the best I can do" I want to scream at the top of my lungs I miss my husband and I want him to come home! Am I afraid they are going to pity me? Am I afraid they will just say "get over it"? I don't really know why but, darn it I wish I could just say this! 

     It's the little things I miss the most...Mr. E leaving his clothes lying around the bedroom floor. I would always yell at him for this. We have a dirty clothes hamper for a reason. Now I wish I had those clothes to pick up everyday. I have even thought about taking some of his clothes and doing this..I know I know...crazy! Or me having to remind him to take the trash to the curb. It never failed I would be telling him "don't forget to set the trash out in the morning". But since he has been gone do you think I remember to do this...oh heck no, 2 weeks in a row I forgot!! Thankfully since Mr. E has left we don't have that much trash. I miss him tingling my back at night while we lay in bed, watching Golden Girls together (yes I really do get my husband to watch this show with me shh don't tell his buddies),  or the gentle way he would kiss me. I just miss him. 

   I am entitled to my bad days and my whiny-ness. Although I feel like I let Mr. E down when I give into the weakness and break down. Yes I know he would not be...but a part of me does not want him to have to think about me like this. He needs to stay focused on the job and get it done. I wish I could walk to the street and not be jealous of a girl holding her husband tight in her arms. Every time I see this I wish I could just get back in my car a drive straight to him. But I just keep on trucking and put in the back of my mind, until I see the next couple. 

  Mr. E surprised me with Edible Arrangements this past week and let me just say I cried my little eyes out!  I was definitely surprised! This was the time that it really hit me, he was gone. He wouldn't be coming home from work so I could wrap my arms around him and say thank you and I love you, instead I had to send him a Facebook message saying how much I loved the surprise, waiting 3 days to hear back from him. 

   Everyone takes for grant what they have. So I guess what I am saying is don't let the little things bother you, be patient with your man. Men are wired differently, they some times don't  get the little hints we send them or notice the comment about the laundry needing to be folded. Just simply ask them to help you. Yes, I am at fault for these things as well, but appreciate him for him. If you try to force him to do things in a negative way, you will get negative results.  When he walks in the door after work, whether he smells gross or not, wrap your arms around him and tell him you love him. He needs these things just as much as we need them.  Cherish every minute with him.