Letting it all out!

This week has not gotten any better, it keeps going down hill faster and faster. I feel like I have hit rock bottom. I feel as if I am doing this all alone. I have great family and friends supporting me, but I feel as if they truly don't understand what I am going through. This is tough, we knew it would be.I just really miss my husband.  Our son is adjusting again with daddy leaving. It breaks my heart that the only emotion he can show for missing his daddy is anger and unfortunately it is directed towards me. Then I start feeling extremely guilty for blaming my husband for this. I did not sign up for  this. Why am I the one who has to deal with this, it's not my fault daddy left. Then I calm down get back in my right mind and remember exactly why I am doing all of this! Because I love my husband and would do anything for him. As a great friend told me there is always sunshine on the other side of every storm. We just have to get through this little storm together as a family! We may be thousands of miles apart but we will do it. I may not have any hair left but we WILL get through it! 
5 more days!!